New beginning

I have been thinking about starting a blog for so long but kept on debating about the idea. An obvious reason was of course, I have no time for it. The second biggest reservation was whether the sharing would affect my privacy. But I know deep down, it is more my doubts - would my blog be good enough or good at all? 

While the first two concerns are still valid, I am learning to overcome my self-consciousness. The topic of "self" is a big one. A professor once said to me it is a life-long struggle, one of the biggest one. It is so true. It is probably a blog post itself for another day. For now, I just reckon that writing a blog is not to show the world how good I am, that my experiences and my thoughts are worth sharing. It is in fact quite the opposite. It is the realization that I am small, weak, powerless, constantly changing and failing, and most important of all, that my life is nothing but a vapor that will fade without a trace one day. It is merely a short journey before I return to the Father's place. I write this blog to remind myself what I have learned in this life, to share my lessons with others who may be struggling, and to praise my Lord for His wondrous love and amazing grace.

Today is not a special date but I somehow feel that I have a new beginning. First, I have just passed half of my pregnancy! Second, we have moved out from our place (having it renovated for a month) and settled at my sister's at Tai Po (big thanks to my sister for all the help and for accommodating us for a month!). Third, I have taken today off to organize my thoughts by starting this blog and by replying emails to some friends who wrote to ask how we have been. I decided not to work at all even I am on my computer. Well, I have failed a bit as I replied to a few work emails but will stop doing that! Anyhow, this is THE DAY to get started.

Where I wrote my first blog.